The hopeless me Series : Part 2

I bothered my mom and dad way too much while growing up. Never ending demands, complaints from neighbourhood children, too much fuss over everything, never studied well and still demanded to be loved always!
Now when I look back, I gave my dad the toughest time in bringing me up, yet he never gave up. he kept trying no matter how much I irritated him. He succeeded in teaching me swimming in 2 years, cycling in 2 months, and waking me up early in the morning in 20 years.
I think I was in my ninth class when my dad felt I was way too healthy(you can read FAT) for my age and I badly needed some exercise. He enrolled my sister and me in shuttle coaching classes that summer. 2 days, just 2 days and I quit the classes. My reasons:1) Coach made me run way too much in the name of warm up exercise. 2) Nobody hit the shuttle to where I stood in the court, I always had to run for the shuttle which I wouldn't.
Reasons were absurd but I wouldn't budge. My dad never again tried any other sport activity with me.

Hopeless me Series: Part 1

Welcome to the new series of my life "The hopeless me". Just to enlighten you about how hopeless I have been through out my life but still made it through all these years.
Couple of days back I was reminded of this one incident that happened years ago and was embarrassed no end. here goes the story for you...

I was never particularly a very bright student in my life, never ever got a first rank and if I did, my dad would've got a shock attack. So, as you see the expectations were also so low from me that it never struck me to try harder to raise the bar.

In my tenth standard, there were these loads of examinations being conducted, hopes, pre hopes, term exams etc. Geography was my biggest threat. The exam usually was for 40 marks and I never got more than 18 out of 40. Sometimes lesser but never more. 18 was more or less a consistent score. I hated the subject, I didnt know why the earth was divided in to so many continents and each continent in to so many countries and why each country should have a capital. I don't care how many kinds of forests are there(I remeber 2 now tropical and rain, wow!) and I can never point out the exact location of Ganges in a blank outline of India map. I used to be so stressed out before every geography exam that my dad finally decided to help me out. Make me sit and study and explain everything. He helped me a lot, woke me up early in the morning to explain geography and made me by heart stuff. All this before a pre hope exam as far as I remember. This time I entered the exam hall more confidently thinking I was a master in geography now and gave the paper. The results were out soon. Trust me I didn't want to go home that day. I so wanted to die out of shame. I showed my answer sheet with scores to my dad, and as expected he was shocked, shocked that I scored 19 out of 40 after all the effort he put in. 1 extra mark for all the effort!!!??? He never again asked me for my geography score again :) He completely gave up on me!
Best part was I somehow managed to beat that score in the final board exam. I managed to score 82 out of 100 in social science, but I will never know how much exactly did I score in geography!

Regrets?.. NO!

I read an article in the newspaper on Sunday about people having regrets over the decisions they have taken in the past. With lots of ifs and buts kind of thoughts ruining your present, thinking life would've been better if only they took some other decision.

Most of us take life's most important decisions before we are mature enough to understand their impact its going to have on our lives. And my guess is, for most of us, those decisions are taken by our parents. So it's obvious that later in life, you go over your past and think what if you opted to go for the other choice than the one you are living with! and such thoughts come only when you are not happy now.

Luckily for me, most of my life changing decisions have all been taken by me. So, I really don't have anyone to blame for the life I am leading . And am Happy, I got a chance to take those decisions, but the only regret I have is, I didn't put the right amount of thought those decisions deserved. At 14, I decided to go for Math stream , at 16 I decided to become an engineer and at 20 I decided to start working and not study further. At 21 to marry and settle down in India and at 22, whom to marry!

Sometimes, thoughts wander to past with lots of if's and but's but at the end of day, there are absolutely no regrets. Things have happened as per destiny and for good.

My sweety turned 2

Happy birthday Akshara. It's been 2 years since I saw you first time, tiny ,pink, crying loud and clear in the nurse's hands and 2 yrs 9 months to our first association. Time really flies.

Where has the time gone, when you fitted perfectly in my arms, small and cuddly, when you actually cried for milk and relished it everytime I fed you, you only knew to smile you sunshine smile and never cranky. My small cotton candy ball has now transformed in to a small girl , a little worldly wise who knows how to get things done her way, who knows when to say NO(vehemently that is), who knows which dress she likes best, who can now look in to mirror and admire herself and worst of all hates milk and cries every morning to gulp down that small glass of milk!(same girl who used to cry through the night for milk, milk and milk just an year back)

She now goes to school, can stand in front of the scooty, come back home on her own in the school van, play fearlessly with the cat, swing on her own, has a group of friends, feels bad when she is mocked, can sing the songs "happy birthday to you","old mc donald", and "wheels on the bus". She loves books, is iPod crazy (She can unlock it, take pictures, play her videos(finding nemo, Rio, Lion King 2) and also play some kid apps in it).

Love you sweety for the amazing years and more to come, which am sure are going to be equally crazy, happy, busy and fun filled if not more!

The 3 magic words

The words "I Love you" have magical effect on you everytime someone says it to you. And all the more when you know how much the other person means it. I realized there is no true translation for it to that effect in any other languages that I know. Say for hindi, when you say "main tumse pyaar karti hoon", or "mujhe tumse pyaar hai" will have zero effect on the other person and it sounds so off and dramatic. Nothing compared to what "I love you" does for you.

How do you just express your love in telugu? What do you say that conveys the exact feeling? I tried to form different phrased but all sounded horribly melodramatic and nothing that perfectly matches "I love you".

1)Ninnu premisthunnanu

2)nee pai prema vachindi(yuckk I knw)

3) Ninne premista (Violent)

4)nuvvu naa preyasi/priya

Now I wonder what my grandpa told my grandpa when he had to just tell her he loves her. I can bet my life, he wouldnt have said ILU to her, something in telugu it has to be. he would kill me if I asked him that. or for that matter ,is there any Indian language which has an expression that matches ILU, short and sweet, something that conveys your emotion and state of mind to the other person with the perfect effect.

Signing off in quest...