Monday, January 30, 2023

When does the career for women actually take off?

Is it me or is there anyone else who thinks women are more driven and ambitious at work? Lately, I have come across so many men who crib and complain about losing their interest at work, not having the purpose to pursue , or just plain bored. I have even come across someone having " Quarter life crisis" ! I wish they could see they have it much much better than the women. Kids have only one thing to pay attention to - studies, and men - work. I would any day trade places with either of them. 

Men cribbing that they do not have the choice to "Not work", who has it btw? Financial independence is now basic. I wish the need for sharing domestic work load evolved at the same pace at which the need for financial independence has evolved. 

There are far and few women in the leadership. Every single time I thought I can completely focus on my career , there was a deflection from personal front , some out of choice, and the rest without. I can't help but look back and see how things could have turned out differently at each of those points if I hadn't had a personal priority screaming at my face. It is tough having to make those choices and make peace with it. Also inevitable to compare yourself to the peers you started off your career with. I know to each their own, but it still hurts. 

I am super proud I sustained through all those moments when I had to choose, I figured my way out, deprioritized and reprioritized work but kept it going. I had to work extra hard for it to turn out the way it did. For all the work I put in, its super precious for me. I want to be able to give my best to what I have carved out for myself but there still are those deflection points that crop up every now and then. You should be at your physical and mental best to be able to perform at your peak capacity at work. How can you achieve that with so many nagging issues back of your mind? Tantrumy teenagers, ageing parents, health issues of self, harmonal changes, burn out, stress .. just too many things screaming for attention demand you keep work on back burner. 

I need a block of 3 years, where I can focus just on work, with everything else streamlined, everyone taken care of and I can give my best to work, tick off my work bucket list. Is it too much to ask?

Friday, January 20, 2023

We are back!

 I am glad I found this page again!! What you seek is indeed seeking you back. 

So we moved on to 40s. 

Today's state : 

I know I will feel better if I dance

I can dance only if I feel a little better

Should I attend the class or skip it and sulk further? 

Decided to silence all voices in the mind and just attend the class. Fck(this is cas in 40s) everything else.