yeah, I kept my promise to Akki, She has already recieved 2 mails from her mom.. and more to come.
Last week I learnt a valuable lesson. We usually give home made raagi porridge as breakfast for Akki. the flour got over and we went to the market and got a flour which claimed to be consisting of similar ingredients that we used and made hygienically. It was called "Health Mix". We foolishly fell for it and got a small pack to try. All the while the only thing on my mind was, if Akki would like the taste. She liked it and so did I! We fed her the same next day too. What we overlooked was she didn't poop the previous day. Story repeated the next day too. And by third day we started getting worried as she was growing cranky and not eating well. We somehow got her to poop, which was again a hard sight! The hardest stool she had ever passed, crying out of pain,all sweat.. I can never ever forget what pain she had been through! The guilt that I went through when it stuck to me that the breakfast powder had been the culprit, cannot be put in words. She suffered coz of one foolish decision of ours. She developed high fever, stomach indigestion, cough and suffered through the following week which only added more to my guilt. She was suffering and I was watching her suffer helplessly.. torture!
The lil ones are here in this world because of us, so small, so innocent, so pure! They learn everything from us, to talk, to walk, to smile, to cry, to play, to enjoy... they are a reflection of our upbringing. Our small mistake can effect them so much! Its our responsibility to protect them.. give them a good life by giving a good upbringing.
Today I am what my parents moulded me to be, and am really proud of the way they brought me up. I can say that they life I lead, is a gift they gave me. I do not want to believe in destiny. I attribute everything to them, my success, failure, happiness, everything.
I want my daughter to have the best life, I want her to be independent, self confident, generous, kind, helpful and an affectionate human being. She might have inherited some qualities by birth, but the above are the ones that we can inculcate in her. I know its a maor task at hand and I don't even know if I will be fulfill that dream. I need to be a good mother first, which means there is no scope for mistake, not even 1 percent. Scary!
P.S:I might keep going back to remember how my parents brought me up! Copy paste can be applied here also ;)
