Today was my first day at my new job. I was very tensed to start with. All my previous jobs did put a huge responsibility on me but this ones different. If I fail in this job, I would fail someone else's trust on me.
From today, I have started tutoring Harika, a second grade student. She is from a family which is categorized as lower middle class financially but with a strong desire to do well in life and provide her good education. I wanted to contribute in some way.
From the day I have started my leave, I haven't been doing much. Literally nothing other than eating, sleeping and whiling away time playing with my nephew. But today was good. Satisfying. I always thought teaching a second grader is a cake walk. How tough can it be to teach them some hard english words like "grade","request" and "wait" and lessons like "Sheetal", "pussy and parrot"? I got my answer today!It's important to establish the connect first and then get the perspective of a second grader and see how tough it can be to learn a 6 letter word spelling. Patience is the key. That's my learning for the day. Harika has her english exam tomorrow and I hope she does well.. which will only mean I did well..
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
God's favorite child
These days am killing my time answering only 3 questions..
1) How are you doing.. moving around freely?
2) When is the expected due date?
3) Do you know yet if its a baby boy or girl?
There are some more questions depending on how I answer the above three.. If I answer the above questions in mono syllables, there are no more questions.. else there will be more.. like have you thought of names, which doctor are you consulting, what is the weight gain, how are the baby movements and on n on n on.One questions that has been a complete googly for me is this.. " Whats the baby saying..?" I really go dumb thinking what am I supposed to answer for that.. I cant tell them that the baby cant speak yet( too dumb!) neither can I tell them its none of their business.. its a private matter between me n the baby (too rude.. one more thing that I've learnt .. preggies are not supposed to be rude, not supposed to be impatient, not supposed to use bad words or think bad or feel deppressed)! Ok.. back to the question.. it sometimes invokes some serious doubts within me about my motherly instinct.. pushes me to think that may be other women do know what their baby is trying to convey from inside and Ive just not paid enough attention to see what mine is trying to say!
That's the questionnaire part.. then comes the worse part.. everyone has a piece of advice to share and a piece of their own experience to scare! I want to shout on top of my voice.. STOP! STOP! STOP!! Did I really ask you for an advice.. why are you giving me your piece of $h!T !! (again.. the rudeness rule applies here to stop me from doing that)
Now even worse part.. All my mom n dad's friends, relatives.. close and far(I must admit.. I still don't know how exactly we are related) keep coming home to see me.. literally! They come home to see me and they do just that.. Urghhh can somebody just tell them its not good manners to stare at someone!The only good thing about these visits is that they bring some nice sweets and fruits! I sometimes feel like a Goddess creating a life inside me and then everybody coming to see me and offering me sweets and fruits! :) But this Goddess feel good feeling doesn't last for long as the stares are followed by the above questions and then the advices.. and its just a vicious cycle( a very tough one to break)!
Today one of my aunt (I think my dad's second cousin) visited us and it was all fun while she was there. But she said something while leaving that left me fuming. She said that she is hoping I will deliver a baby boy and she would definitely visit me in the hospital if its a baby boy and if its a baby girl, she asked me not to bother to even call her, that she would liesurely pay a visit once am back from the hospital. I really wanted to say.. $%^& off!! My baby really doesn't need a visit from someone like you! But then who all will I say this to.. there are loads of them around me wishing that I deliver only a baby boy.. I don't know how that's going to make even a penny of a difference to their lives! Ive decided to stop bothering about what others say or do.. I have started looking at the humorous side of the whole thing.. some humour thats definitely worth sharing..1) Someone said, if I put tattoos(mehendi) on my palms, its going to be a baby girl. The tattoos going to change the already formed baby's genitel part is it? Really?2) Someone also said that if I have swollen feet, its going to be a baby girl. Excuse me? That's called Edema and 95% pregnant women have it!3) If I become dark and ugly during pregnancy, its going to be a baby boy. Boys dont like beautiful moms is it?4) Beat this.. my sister had a baby boy 2 years back and now my granny wants me to do everything that she did.. exactly same way so that even I will have a baby boy!! like.. sleeping in the morning after breakfast, eating some particular dish that my sis ate the most during her pregnancy.. and so on!! Granny... take a break and gimme one!!
Cmon people.. cant you see.. a girl child is God's favorite child, thats why he gives every girl child a power to create another life.. a power only next to God's power! No matter what guys do, they can never experience the sheer joy of the first baby kick that you feel inside you, never feel the overwhelming joy of the first glimpse of the baby, never feel the satisfaction of feeding the baby! God has really been unfair to guys.. he has not given them so much...
1) How are you doing.. moving around freely?
2) When is the expected due date?
3) Do you know yet if its a baby boy or girl?
There are some more questions depending on how I answer the above three.. If I answer the above questions in mono syllables, there are no more questions.. else there will be more.. like have you thought of names, which doctor are you consulting, what is the weight gain, how are the baby movements and on n on n on.One questions that has been a complete googly for me is this.. " Whats the baby saying..?" I really go dumb thinking what am I supposed to answer for that.. I cant tell them that the baby cant speak yet( too dumb!) neither can I tell them its none of their business.. its a private matter between me n the baby (too rude.. one more thing that I've learnt .. preggies are not supposed to be rude, not supposed to be impatient, not supposed to use bad words or think bad or feel deppressed)! Ok.. back to the question.. it sometimes invokes some serious doubts within me about my motherly instinct.. pushes me to think that may be other women do know what their baby is trying to convey from inside and Ive just not paid enough attention to see what mine is trying to say!
That's the questionnaire part.. then comes the worse part.. everyone has a piece of advice to share and a piece of their own experience to scare! I want to shout on top of my voice.. STOP! STOP! STOP!! Did I really ask you for an advice.. why are you giving me your piece of $h!T !! (again.. the rudeness rule applies here to stop me from doing that)
Now even worse part.. All my mom n dad's friends, relatives.. close and far(I must admit.. I still don't know how exactly we are related) keep coming home to see me.. literally! They come home to see me and they do just that.. Urghhh can somebody just tell them its not good manners to stare at someone!The only good thing about these visits is that they bring some nice sweets and fruits! I sometimes feel like a Goddess creating a life inside me and then everybody coming to see me and offering me sweets and fruits! :) But this Goddess feel good feeling doesn't last for long as the stares are followed by the above questions and then the advices.. and its just a vicious cycle( a very tough one to break)!
Today one of my aunt (I think my dad's second cousin) visited us and it was all fun while she was there. But she said something while leaving that left me fuming. She said that she is hoping I will deliver a baby boy and she would definitely visit me in the hospital if its a baby boy and if its a baby girl, she asked me not to bother to even call her, that she would liesurely pay a visit once am back from the hospital. I really wanted to say.. $%^& off!! My baby really doesn't need a visit from someone like you! But then who all will I say this to.. there are loads of them around me wishing that I deliver only a baby boy.. I don't know how that's going to make even a penny of a difference to their lives! Ive decided to stop bothering about what others say or do.. I have started looking at the humorous side of the whole thing.. some humour thats definitely worth sharing..1) Someone said, if I put tattoos(mehendi) on my palms, its going to be a baby girl. The tattoos going to change the already formed baby's genitel part is it? Really?2) Someone also said that if I have swollen feet, its going to be a baby girl. Excuse me? That's called Edema and 95% pregnant women have it!3) If I become dark and ugly during pregnancy, its going to be a baby boy. Boys dont like beautiful moms is it?4) Beat this.. my sister had a baby boy 2 years back and now my granny wants me to do everything that she did.. exactly same way so that even I will have a baby boy!! like.. sleeping in the morning after breakfast, eating some particular dish that my sis ate the most during her pregnancy.. and so on!! Granny... take a break and gimme one!!
Cmon people.. cant you see.. a girl child is God's favorite child, thats why he gives every girl child a power to create another life.. a power only next to God's power! No matter what guys do, they can never experience the sheer joy of the first baby kick that you feel inside you, never feel the overwhelming joy of the first glimpse of the baby, never feel the satisfaction of feeding the baby! God has really been unfair to guys.. he has not given them so much...
Sunday, July 5, 2009
New phase of life..
You go to an amusement park which has this huge roller coaster ride, which you have to take to go out of the park. You see others going through it, screaming, throwing up, some laughing, some sitting all tensed through out but you have no choice but to take it.Thats pregnancy for you! A huge roller coaster ride.. 9 months of exhilarating joy, little tension, little pain, lot of fat,big belly, lots of food and yeah some throwing up too!There is no other joy compared to the first glimpse of the baby on the scan monitor, a 9 cm little one with tiny hands, legs and a heart that beats at 140bpm!
The baby bump that keeps growing assuring you that the lil one inside you is doing all fine. The first baby kick followed by more kicks which will always bring a smile to your face and make you look beautiful!
9 more weeks to go for me to get promoted to MOM! yayyyyyyyy
The baby bump that keeps growing assuring you that the lil one inside you is doing all fine. The first baby kick followed by more kicks which will always bring a smile to your face and make you look beautiful!
9 more weeks to go for me to get promoted to MOM! yayyyyyyyy
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