1) His Never ending passion for work!
2) Patience - Any time, any place with anyone!
3) Unconditional love for Family - Loves everyone and loved by all!
4) Sincere - personal/Professional - I cudnt ask for more!
5) The smile :)
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Its the Pad-Thai time!!
There was a lot of enthu and excitement building up for the Thai trip and the 2 month long wait finally came to an end!
16th oct - Bangalore Aiport to Suvarnabumi Airport.Left for the airport at 11:15 pm. We were the firt ones to arrive at the airport :) Slowly others started coming and all the hulla gulla started off!A group of 29 can be quite noisy. We flied with NokAir, the International AirDeccan Kindof airlines. They didnt even serve us water, forget candies.The plane was half the size of the other international planes. The flight took off at 3:30 am and it took us 4 hours to reach Bangkok.It was 9:00 am local time. And all the other immigration formalities took us another 2 hours.
17th Oct - Pattayya time
We were recieved by our tour guide, Karn at the airport. Started or Pattayya. Around 2 and half hours drive from Bangkok.We reached Pattayya by 3 and had lunch at a pathetic India restau. Then we checked in to our A-One Ryal Cruise Hotel. The welcome drink was some Thai Herb juicewhich tasted like some rice starch water with a biryani essence. :) And as expected, most of us just couldnt sink it in!
We started for the Alcazar show at 6, and the night life at Pattayya had just begun. I had no clue of what to expect there,but as we went across the road, the reality was right there staring at us! And may be I was the only one who was shell shocked!Other knew how its gonna be there.
After the show we went for the Japanese restau - Fuji , and the whole menu was completely greek and latin for me.The food was not as bad as I expected, infact I liked the Prawn tempuras :)Then we headed to the Hard Rock cafe. The long walk along the beach road was very refreshing. The rock band at the cafe was amazing.The music so good that one cant stop from jhooming. We left the place around 1 dead tired.
18th oct - Water sports!
The day started quite early. We started by 8 all set for the water sports. We left for the Coral island in Pattayya in a speed boat.The speed boat ride was something like a speed drive on the bumpy roads of bangalore. I almost felt that I was just one jump away from landing in to the deep blue sea!Parasailing was the first thing on the agenda. The first time I did Parasailing in Mauritius was better than this one as there both Naresh and me were tied to one Parachute. But here, I was all on my own!The take off was scary but after that, i thoroughly enjoyed the swaying and the cool breeze. Felt like a bird! I wanted a dip in the ocean but the winds were so bad that i had to give the dip a skip!
Then we went for Under sea walk. It was good but may be all of us expected lot more out of it. 25 mins Under the sea, feeding the fish searching corals can never be bad !The moment we held the bread piece in our hands, we were surrounded by hundreds of fishes, an experience i cannot put in words.Then the guy showed us some interesting sea living beings, one Voilet in colour, looking like an octopus and we were asked to touch it!Another one Black porcupiny thing which he ran over our hands.. a lil slimy I must say!
After that we were just left in the open green crystal clear beach to play to our hearts ocntent!This was real fun. I tried teaching the huby dear some swimming and it was almost like a murder attempt for him :)I finally had to give up on him!
reached hotel by 1:00 and we had to leave by 1:30 again for lunch. After a quick refresh, we left for lunch and it was indian again!But as we all were famished, the food tasted heavenly! After lunch we went to Mini Siam. Miniature thailand it is. It also has some miniature models of some other famous monuments.Then we headed back to hotel and went for a Barbeque dinner at the host hotel. May be we expected too much out of the Barbeque dinner, it was nothing but a big disappointment!Hardly any seafood to gorge on! After the so so dinner we headed to The Pattayya famous Walking Street! we were a lil apprehensive about the street after hearing a lot about it from the guide, but we had to hit this place coz without this, our pattayya trip would be just incomplete!As soon as we hit the street, we knew it was the place to be! Loud People,Loud music, this was where all the action was happening!I was watching with mouth wide open , trying to sink in what I was watching! We hit the Tony's disc and took sometime to get used to the place. But once we hit the dance floor there was no stopping! we danced non stop to the rock band till 2:00 am! Long day it was but the energy levels were never down!
19th Oct- Under water world and Bangkok
We started the day a lil late, at 10:00, had breakfast and headed straight to Under water world. A short walk under the aquarium with fishes in all shapes and sizes and colours.The first tiff among the group started this day. Some wanted to go to the Botanical garden and some were just not interested given the entry fee constraint and other reasons unknown!People were just not ready to shell out 500 bucks for the garden, but some were really zealous. and Mojority won and we had to skip the Botanical garden.We headed straight to Bangkok, this time the drive being longer than 4 hours givent he friday evening traffic.The first 2 hours of drive, everybody slept like the dead! but after that the fun began.. each and every couple in the bus had to sing duets and singles had to support!Real fun it was. naresh and me sang "gazab ka hai din dekho zara" :) Reached hotel by 7 and checked in and started for dinner by 8. again an Indian restau.. pathetic enough! After dinner we all went to the Night market to get a feel of shopping.Awesome place with lot of life and activity till late in the night. We primarily went for window shopping and to my surprise, I stuck to it!Though I was tempted at many a places to buy stuff, Naresh was capable enough to stop me from indulging in compulsive shopping.It was again past 12 by the time we reached the hotel. Hot water tub bath was all I needed!
20th Oct - Wild safari
We had to start early this day, given the tight schedule of the day but we started one hour late and the whole day we were running to cover up. Lot of shows, loads of animals! felt like home :P Orangutan show was the best! Wonder how they train those cuty pies to do all that stuff!Then there was this dolphins show, sea lions show, hollywood action show, warship show. The last two are not even worth a mention. Boring!The wild safari was amazing. Loads of zebras, giraffes, lions, tigers, peacocks, bears!After safari we were taken to some duty free mall. 2 hours of sheer time waste!Dinner again at the same pathetic indian place and after dinner, we headed straight for the famous Thai Massage! Its one of its kind and something one musn't miss in Thailand.1 hour of complete relaxation. I only wished we had more time for that but it was already 12 by the time our one hour massage got over.After the massage, sleep was the only thing goin on in my mind, but this being the last night of the vacation, we all gathered at Ram's room and started playing antakshari, Pictionary.Night camp went on till 2 in the night and we were all too tired to have more fun.
21st Oct - Bangkok city tour- SHopping time!
We started very liesurly, which we all regretted in the later part of the day as we ran short of time for shopping! damn!We visited Golden Budhha temple and Reclining Budha temple and by the time we reached the shopping place it was already 3!we only had time till 7:00 as we had to start for airport by 8 pm. 4 hours for lunch, 20 min walk to the mall and shopping!Even in the time crunch, we decided to have only thai lunch so we went in search of a Thai restau! SO much for food Lovers!I had Crispy fried dumplings Pad thai with prawns and Naresh had some sea food mix rice. The watermelon and coconut frosties were just out of the world.After lunch we headed for the MBK Mall. We had other options for shopping like Indira market, Big C, and one more mall for electronics. But given the time crunch, we could cover only one place and for us it was MBK.we had to walk for about 20 mins to reach there and as Murphy's law never fails, my sandal broke. The shopping freak that I am, I walked bare foot till the mall and started shopping till one of the sales girl mentioned, madam why r u bare foot! then i started hunting for shoe shops :)Shopping was a hurried business, so much to buy so less time! The mall was just treat to the eyes! And I think we almost bought everything we wanted. For us, for others.I missed out buying some stuff for Subbu, sorry dudie.. next time!We went back to hotel by 7:30, packed all the shopping stuff and left for the airport by 8.Flight was at 11:30. We again had Pad thai with prawns at the airport restau.
Tired, sleepless, filled with sweet memories we left Bangkok! Bangalore was never very far.
16th oct - Bangalore Aiport to Suvarnabumi Airport.Left for the airport at 11:15 pm. We were the firt ones to arrive at the airport :) Slowly others started coming and all the hulla gulla started off!A group of 29 can be quite noisy. We flied with NokAir, the International AirDeccan Kindof airlines. They didnt even serve us water, forget candies.The plane was half the size of the other international planes. The flight took off at 3:30 am and it took us 4 hours to reach Bangkok.It was 9:00 am local time. And all the other immigration formalities took us another 2 hours.
17th Oct - Pattayya time
We were recieved by our tour guide, Karn at the airport. Started or Pattayya. Around 2 and half hours drive from Bangkok.We reached Pattayya by 3 and had lunch at a pathetic India restau. Then we checked in to our A-One Ryal Cruise Hotel. The welcome drink was some Thai Herb juicewhich tasted like some rice starch water with a biryani essence. :) And as expected, most of us just couldnt sink it in!
We started for the Alcazar show at 6, and the night life at Pattayya had just begun. I had no clue of what to expect there,but as we went across the road, the reality was right there staring at us! And may be I was the only one who was shell shocked!Other knew how its gonna be there.
After the show we went for the Japanese restau - Fuji , and the whole menu was completely greek and latin for me.The food was not as bad as I expected, infact I liked the Prawn tempuras :)Then we headed to the Hard Rock cafe. The long walk along the beach road was very refreshing. The rock band at the cafe was amazing.The music so good that one cant stop from jhooming. We left the place around 1 dead tired.
18th oct - Water sports!
The day started quite early. We started by 8 all set for the water sports. We left for the Coral island in Pattayya in a speed boat.The speed boat ride was something like a speed drive on the bumpy roads of bangalore. I almost felt that I was just one jump away from landing in to the deep blue sea!Parasailing was the first thing on the agenda. The first time I did Parasailing in Mauritius was better than this one as there both Naresh and me were tied to one Parachute. But here, I was all on my own!The take off was scary but after that, i thoroughly enjoyed the swaying and the cool breeze. Felt like a bird! I wanted a dip in the ocean but the winds were so bad that i had to give the dip a skip!
Then we went for Under sea walk. It was good but may be all of us expected lot more out of it. 25 mins Under the sea, feeding the fish searching corals can never be bad !The moment we held the bread piece in our hands, we were surrounded by hundreds of fishes, an experience i cannot put in words.Then the guy showed us some interesting sea living beings, one Voilet in colour, looking like an octopus and we were asked to touch it!Another one Black porcupiny thing which he ran over our hands.. a lil slimy I must say!
After that we were just left in the open green crystal clear beach to play to our hearts ocntent!This was real fun. I tried teaching the huby dear some swimming and it was almost like a murder attempt for him :)I finally had to give up on him!
reached hotel by 1:00 and we had to leave by 1:30 again for lunch. After a quick refresh, we left for lunch and it was indian again!But as we all were famished, the food tasted heavenly! After lunch we went to Mini Siam. Miniature thailand it is. It also has some miniature models of some other famous monuments.Then we headed back to hotel and went for a Barbeque dinner at the host hotel. May be we expected too much out of the Barbeque dinner, it was nothing but a big disappointment!Hardly any seafood to gorge on! After the so so dinner we headed to The Pattayya famous Walking Street! we were a lil apprehensive about the street after hearing a lot about it from the guide, but we had to hit this place coz without this, our pattayya trip would be just incomplete!As soon as we hit the street, we knew it was the place to be! Loud People,Loud music, this was where all the action was happening!I was watching with mouth wide open , trying to sink in what I was watching! We hit the Tony's disc and took sometime to get used to the place. But once we hit the dance floor there was no stopping! we danced non stop to the rock band till 2:00 am! Long day it was but the energy levels were never down!
19th Oct- Under water world and Bangkok
We started the day a lil late, at 10:00, had breakfast and headed straight to Under water world. A short walk under the aquarium with fishes in all shapes and sizes and colours.The first tiff among the group started this day. Some wanted to go to the Botanical garden and some were just not interested given the entry fee constraint and other reasons unknown!People were just not ready to shell out 500 bucks for the garden, but some were really zealous. and Mojority won and we had to skip the Botanical garden.We headed straight to Bangkok, this time the drive being longer than 4 hours givent he friday evening traffic.The first 2 hours of drive, everybody slept like the dead! but after that the fun began.. each and every couple in the bus had to sing duets and singles had to support!Real fun it was. naresh and me sang "gazab ka hai din dekho zara" :) Reached hotel by 7 and checked in and started for dinner by 8. again an Indian restau.. pathetic enough! After dinner we all went to the Night market to get a feel of shopping.Awesome place with lot of life and activity till late in the night. We primarily went for window shopping and to my surprise, I stuck to it!Though I was tempted at many a places to buy stuff, Naresh was capable enough to stop me from indulging in compulsive shopping.It was again past 12 by the time we reached the hotel. Hot water tub bath was all I needed!
20th Oct - Wild safari
We had to start early this day, given the tight schedule of the day but we started one hour late and the whole day we were running to cover up. Lot of shows, loads of animals! felt like home :P Orangutan show was the best! Wonder how they train those cuty pies to do all that stuff!Then there was this dolphins show, sea lions show, hollywood action show, warship show. The last two are not even worth a mention. Boring!The wild safari was amazing. Loads of zebras, giraffes, lions, tigers, peacocks, bears!After safari we were taken to some duty free mall. 2 hours of sheer time waste!Dinner again at the same pathetic indian place and after dinner, we headed straight for the famous Thai Massage! Its one of its kind and something one musn't miss in Thailand.1 hour of complete relaxation. I only wished we had more time for that but it was already 12 by the time our one hour massage got over.After the massage, sleep was the only thing goin on in my mind, but this being the last night of the vacation, we all gathered at Ram's room and started playing antakshari, Pictionary.Night camp went on till 2 in the night and we were all too tired to have more fun.
21st Oct - Bangkok city tour- SHopping time!
We started very liesurly, which we all regretted in the later part of the day as we ran short of time for shopping! damn!We visited Golden Budhha temple and Reclining Budha temple and by the time we reached the shopping place it was already 3!we only had time till 7:00 as we had to start for airport by 8 pm. 4 hours for lunch, 20 min walk to the mall and shopping!Even in the time crunch, we decided to have only thai lunch so we went in search of a Thai restau! SO much for food Lovers!I had Crispy fried dumplings Pad thai with prawns and Naresh had some sea food mix rice. The watermelon and coconut frosties were just out of the world.After lunch we headed for the MBK Mall. We had other options for shopping like Indira market, Big C, and one more mall for electronics. But given the time crunch, we could cover only one place and for us it was MBK.we had to walk for about 20 mins to reach there and as Murphy's law never fails, my sandal broke. The shopping freak that I am, I walked bare foot till the mall and started shopping till one of the sales girl mentioned, madam why r u bare foot! then i started hunting for shoe shops :)Shopping was a hurried business, so much to buy so less time! The mall was just treat to the eyes! And I think we almost bought everything we wanted. For us, for others.I missed out buying some stuff for Subbu, sorry dudie.. next time!We went back to hotel by 7:30, packed all the shopping stuff and left for the airport by 8.Flight was at 11:30. We again had Pad thai with prawns at the airport restau.
Tired, sleepless, filled with sweet memories we left Bangkok! Bangalore was never very far.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Joey.. Tu aisi kyun hai!
Just how blind can anybody be to miss out the upcoming birthdays list in the orkut home page??
Today morning, strongly believing in my talent to remember birthdays, called up my friend Pradeep to wish him on his birthday! The first time I tried, his number was busy, which convinced me even more that it definitely is his birthday and hez busy recieving calls from others!
The second time i tried and when he picked up, me and my stupidity wished him "Happy birthday dudeeeeeeeee" in the brightest tone possible!
Poor thing.. All he could say is today is not my birthday.. I remember your birthday so well .. its dec 16th right? .. Gee.. what can I say! Aisi hi hoon main!
Today morning, strongly believing in my talent to remember birthdays, called up my friend Pradeep to wish him on his birthday! The first time I tried, his number was busy, which convinced me even more that it definitely is his birthday and hez busy recieving calls from others!
The second time i tried and when he picked up, me and my stupidity wished him "Happy birthday dudeeeeeeeee" in the brightest tone possible!
Poor thing.. All he could say is today is not my birthday.. I remember your birthday so well .. its dec 16th right? .. Gee.. what can I say! Aisi hi hoon main!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
when things go wrong...
Whenever things go wrong, the focus is completely back on us. We have to do something to pep our mood up and go on.. For me somehow everything relates back to food. when am Sad, i love to ea some good food to pep up the mood and also when am in a good mood, i prefer eating something heavenly to make the mood better :)
today is one such day that no matter what I did through out the day, nothing is making me feel better. So i resorted to prawns for my rescue ..
here's prawn biryani in a Hurry..
200 gms raw peeled king prawns
2 small onions, thinly
1 green finger chilli, slit lengthwise
1 stick cinnamon
4-5 cloves
1 tsp minced ginger and garlic
Quarter tsp chilli powder
Quarter tsp garam masala powder
1.5 cups rice
3 cups water
2 tsp gheeSprinkling
Wash and soak the rice for haff hour.
Heat the ghee and fry the onions, ginger, garlic, cloves and cinnamon. When the onions start turning translucent and soft, add chilli powder.
Fry this paste until the raw smell of the masalas go.
Then add the rice and fry for 2 minutes. Add the water, and put it ther ein that electri cooker and close the lid. Dont bother for another haff hour.
Your yummy dish is all ready to go!
today is one such day that no matter what I did through out the day, nothing is making me feel better. So i resorted to prawns for my rescue ..
here's prawn biryani in a Hurry..
200 gms raw peeled king prawns
2 small onions, thinly
1 green finger chilli, slit lengthwise
1 stick cinnamon
4-5 cloves
1 tsp minced ginger and garlic
Quarter tsp chilli powder
Quarter tsp garam masala powder
1.5 cups rice
3 cups water
2 tsp gheeSprinkling
Wash and soak the rice for haff hour.
Heat the ghee and fry the onions, ginger, garlic, cloves and cinnamon. When the onions start turning translucent and soft, add chilli powder.
Fry this paste until the raw smell of the masalas go.
Then add the rice and fry for 2 minutes. Add the water, and put it ther ein that electri cooker and close the lid. Dont bother for another haff hour.
Your yummy dish is all ready to go!
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
The Mask..
Heart aches everytime a true face comes up from behind the mask.. why this hypocricy? why this act feigning happiness cheating people.I feel am surounded by people with remarkable masks! their happiness comes from the other persons suffering.where is all this leading.. why is there so much pain?
Why cant people be just normal?
Why cant people be just normal?
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Someone says..
Do what you love and if that doesnt happen then love what you do.
Easier said than done eh? :)
Easier said than done eh? :)
Chasing dreams...
Yesterday I gave a send off to yet another friend... most of my friends from school, college, workplace all have gone places abroad chasing their dreams.For some it was the only thing to do, for some it was a dream to land there and for some others it was Money.To be frank even I tried to go with the flow and check it out for myself as to what the US of A has that is attracts so many people everyday year after year..But my destiny had something else in for me.. Dad was not very keen on sending me that far all alone. Now I am not keen on going anywhere else, mera bharat is indeed mahaan :)or may be I got so used to life here that am resisting any kind of change now. May be i am growing older.. naah.. bad thought.!I dont know how it is to be there, what it takes to stay in a country thats not ours, to be an outsider even after years , to own a lifestyle thats so different from what it was all the way till then..so for me its good here. I have been here all my life, its like home here. Known surroundings, family and friends.
But nothing seems to deter people from going there, they are all ready to face any kind of challenge in that new place.what must be that driving force that for people even from remote villages dont worry about leaving their family and go and adapt to a completely new environment.
I sometimes wonder how students who are just out from college can take such a big decision about going to some other country for the rest of their life.I know its no longer a big deal, but still it cant be just for that easy lifestyle and money that they leave behind their family, home and their own country. or may be its peer pressure or may be just a matter of pride.I can only imagine how overwhelming it would be to be in a new country all by your own thats so different from where you come. Suddenly you are responsible for everything, there's no one to fall back on , no one there to nag you about having food in time, waking up early, studying! Independence is the word! thats the reason why may be, people who come back for a vacation find it so difficult to gel in the environment they've grown up and been there for their whole life. The suddenly start finding things chaotic and suffocating and crib about everything that they missed initially.
My colleagues who cringe everytime they hear someone is going onsite have only one thing in mind, another opportunity missed to earn big bucks.It seems only more logical to me that people wait for that one opportunity to make big bucks that will make life much more luxurious here. It makes owning that house and car so much more easier.These people atleast have an intention to come back and come back to a better life. This for me seems to be a good thing to do than to go there and settle down and living a life thats not yours and wasting away the whole life leading a life thats not yours trying to earn big and save money. Think twice about spending every penny!!Whats a life where you earn a million but still have to vaccum your house and wash the dishes and clean the toilet!
yeah, theres one more category of peoplewho like to go abroad just for the sheer pleasure of going round the world at company's cost - mix work with pleasure. :)I fall under this category. I love going places, but at the end of the day I long to be back at home, I strat missing my family. There cant be a home away from home. If there's a home, its gotto be here!
hmm.. Destiny decides destination..
But nothing seems to deter people from going there, they are all ready to face any kind of challenge in that new place.what must be that driving force that for people even from remote villages dont worry about leaving their family and go and adapt to a completely new environment.
I sometimes wonder how students who are just out from college can take such a big decision about going to some other country for the rest of their life.I know its no longer a big deal, but still it cant be just for that easy lifestyle and money that they leave behind their family, home and their own country. or may be its peer pressure or may be just a matter of pride.I can only imagine how overwhelming it would be to be in a new country all by your own thats so different from where you come. Suddenly you are responsible for everything, there's no one to fall back on , no one there to nag you about having food in time, waking up early, studying! Independence is the word! thats the reason why may be, people who come back for a vacation find it so difficult to gel in the environment they've grown up and been there for their whole life. The suddenly start finding things chaotic and suffocating and crib about everything that they missed initially.
My colleagues who cringe everytime they hear someone is going onsite have only one thing in mind, another opportunity missed to earn big bucks.It seems only more logical to me that people wait for that one opportunity to make big bucks that will make life much more luxurious here. It makes owning that house and car so much more easier.These people atleast have an intention to come back and come back to a better life. This for me seems to be a good thing to do than to go there and settle down and living a life thats not yours and wasting away the whole life leading a life thats not yours trying to earn big and save money. Think twice about spending every penny!!Whats a life where you earn a million but still have to vaccum your house and wash the dishes and clean the toilet!
yeah, theres one more category of peoplewho like to go abroad just for the sheer pleasure of going round the world at company's cost - mix work with pleasure. :)I fall under this category. I love going places, but at the end of the day I long to be back at home, I strat missing my family. There cant be a home away from home. If there's a home, its gotto be here!
hmm.. Destiny decides destination..
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Daddy's daughter!
Can you believe it?? Dad called up yesterday to tell me that people who are doing their MBA from IIM's are earning bigggggg bucks..and if only I had paid heed to his advice of doing an MBA from IIM's I wouldve also been earning so much!
Dad puhleeeeeeeez!! its okay.. its a lil embarrassing to tell you that your lil girl is not all that talented/equipped to do MBA from IIM's and earn 1Cr per month!! :)
May be you should try encouraging your grand-son/daughter now :)
Dad puhleeeeeeeez!! its okay.. its a lil embarrassing to tell you that your lil girl is not all that talented/equipped to do MBA from IIM's and earn 1Cr per month!! :)
May be you should try encouraging your grand-son/daughter now :)
Monday, October 1, 2007
Relief finally!
Sigh! it was a big sigh of relief! I no longer have to write any exams.. No longer have to force myself to sit before the books and listen to the lectures.. but looking back I think I will miss all that! it was fun in a way though I did not really enjoy it that much!
While preparing for exams.. I used to wonder, why am I doing my Masters? what am I going to achieve by getting that extra degree! For I dont even know if am going to work in this field for how many more years or may be months!
These questions keep hitting me.. why am I in IT field.. why am I studying.. but then If I am not doing what I am doing, what else can I do!!
I agree this job has everything.. right from money, respect, learning, challenges, freebies.. everything! but if there is some lacking.. i guess its in me.. the enthu to do this job and the job satisfaction is I guess what I lack!
The first thought that strikes as a solution to this is to quit! but the immediate question is what next! what do I really wanna do.. doing what will give me that satisfaction that this is something that I always wanted to do! And I know nobody will be able to help me figure this out.,. this is something I have to figure out on my own and I dont have a way to find it! how many more years will I be trying my hands at various things and when will I decide and when will I settle down!
I dont even feel like sharing these thoughts with anyone.. as I only feel more dumb and portray the impression of a confused soul! I tried talking this out once to my Mom and you know what she said! She said I dont have enough work at office and thats why my idle brain is thinking of all this garbage! For her all that matters is that I have a good job, good salary, happy settled family and what more do I want! When I myself am not clear about what more I want, how can I expect her to understand!!
Or may be I never had a specific goal or ambition in life, no specific die hard interest because of which I am not able to really enjoy what I have! All the important decisions in my life till now have been taken by others.. and the decisions I took for myself didnt really have a strong reasoning behind them!
In school.. studied because everybody else was studying and to sustain this pressure from parents to perform better than others!
After 10th, the decision to take the Maths stream was also not very strongly reasoned.. Just because I didnt have the courage to take up biology or history, the only choice I had was MPC!
and EAMCET? Yeah why did I write EAMCET? Dont you know? everybody in Andhra writes EAMCet.. and i was just one among them!
Yeah then computer engineering.. this was one decision I made! and I guess I never would like to share the reason behind choosing computers science as my branch.. I had other options of ECE and EEE and mech and all others.. i dont remember who but someone told me Comp sci was the easiest of all branches! and Lo! I made my dad pay big bucks as fees for my comp sci engg seat! Even then I never understood I was making my dad pay a lot of his hard earned money on something I really never wanted so much!
After engineering again a point where I had to take a decision on what I wanted to do next! My dad wanted to force his opinion but I managed to not agree to it somehow! and even till date he keeps saying, i didnt listen to him then! I had lot of options i thought after engineering, GRE and MS what everybody did, GATE and MTech.. what my dad wanted me to do , CAT and MBA which i felt i could never do and yeah the easiest of all the 'IT' job!! and yeah easy guess, I ended up in my first job at Hyd!
And yeah as I told you my dad kept on cribbing about my masters degree and hence the application to do MS in software systems at BITS Pilani! Afterall he had every right to flaunt his daughter was doing masters from BITS Pilani even after a Job and marriage!
Ohh good! Now I know why I applied for this "Masters" degree of mine and slogged 3 years in and out of it! So much for Degreesake!
Someday... I still have that hope that I will realise what I want to do.. some die hard interest that I will develop.. I will not let this life of mine go waste...
While preparing for exams.. I used to wonder, why am I doing my Masters? what am I going to achieve by getting that extra degree! For I dont even know if am going to work in this field for how many more years or may be months!
These questions keep hitting me.. why am I in IT field.. why am I studying.. but then If I am not doing what I am doing, what else can I do!!
I agree this job has everything.. right from money, respect, learning, challenges, freebies.. everything! but if there is some lacking.. i guess its in me.. the enthu to do this job and the job satisfaction is I guess what I lack!
The first thought that strikes as a solution to this is to quit! but the immediate question is what next! what do I really wanna do.. doing what will give me that satisfaction that this is something that I always wanted to do! And I know nobody will be able to help me figure this out.,. this is something I have to figure out on my own and I dont have a way to find it! how many more years will I be trying my hands at various things and when will I decide and when will I settle down!
I dont even feel like sharing these thoughts with anyone.. as I only feel more dumb and portray the impression of a confused soul! I tried talking this out once to my Mom and you know what she said! She said I dont have enough work at office and thats why my idle brain is thinking of all this garbage! For her all that matters is that I have a good job, good salary, happy settled family and what more do I want! When I myself am not clear about what more I want, how can I expect her to understand!!
Or may be I never had a specific goal or ambition in life, no specific die hard interest because of which I am not able to really enjoy what I have! All the important decisions in my life till now have been taken by others.. and the decisions I took for myself didnt really have a strong reasoning behind them!
In school.. studied because everybody else was studying and to sustain this pressure from parents to perform better than others!
After 10th, the decision to take the Maths stream was also not very strongly reasoned.. Just because I didnt have the courage to take up biology or history, the only choice I had was MPC!
and EAMCET? Yeah why did I write EAMCET? Dont you know? everybody in Andhra writes EAMCet.. and i was just one among them!
Yeah then computer engineering.. this was one decision I made! and I guess I never would like to share the reason behind choosing computers science as my branch.. I had other options of ECE and EEE and mech and all others.. i dont remember who but someone told me Comp sci was the easiest of all branches! and Lo! I made my dad pay big bucks as fees for my comp sci engg seat! Even then I never understood I was making my dad pay a lot of his hard earned money on something I really never wanted so much!
After engineering again a point where I had to take a decision on what I wanted to do next! My dad wanted to force his opinion but I managed to not agree to it somehow! and even till date he keeps saying, i didnt listen to him then! I had lot of options i thought after engineering, GRE and MS what everybody did, GATE and MTech.. what my dad wanted me to do , CAT and MBA which i felt i could never do and yeah the easiest of all the 'IT' job!! and yeah easy guess, I ended up in my first job at Hyd!
And yeah as I told you my dad kept on cribbing about my masters degree and hence the application to do MS in software systems at BITS Pilani! Afterall he had every right to flaunt his daughter was doing masters from BITS Pilani even after a Job and marriage!
Ohh good! Now I know why I applied for this "Masters" degree of mine and slogged 3 years in and out of it! So much for Degreesake!
Someday... I still have that hope that I will realise what I want to do.. some die hard interest that I will develop.. I will not let this life of mine go waste...
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